It's tough to sum up and describe the last few days. In the course of my PhD studies, I've come to notice the ebb and flow of progress. Some weeks, things just seem to come together and in others nothing works out. Observing these trends from a far, you'd realise this is just natural law dictating randomness in our lives. However, when you can't seem to gain traction and you feel you're without focus, the psychological effects can be intense.
Overall I'd have to say I am lucky I accomplished as much as I did this week. And in reality, it wasn't as unproductive as I might make it sound. But for all the "success" I may have had over the past couple days, I can't attribute these results to any sort of plan.
My problem started at the beginning of the week when I neglected to look at the coming days and map out my work. I had a half hearted to do list which, compared to my planning the week before, was pathetic. Add to this my apparent lack of interest in some of my tasks which caused me to drift between projects. I struggled at work from one task to another until I found something that was fun or until I found something with an impending deadline. This made my week at school oscillate between crisis control and cruise mode. And this has left me exhausted and disappointed in my efforts.
Last Sunday I mentioned that I wanted to do a better job looking after my health in the coming weeks, but again, I launched in without any plan. Without any forethought I was doomed to be unsuccessful, but unfortunately my frustration is further compounded by the feeling of failure. A step in, what feels like, the "right direction" quickly turns into two steps back.
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